Wake Up

speaking to me
you are and
loving on me
you are and it’s
occurring to me
that these past sufferings
are helping me connect unlike before
you are overwhelming me
and it’s a bizarrely wondrous feeling
you are building back in me
a fighting fire, pursuing purpose
you are hearing me
not for the first time
here this whole time
and it’s me
you set free
again and again
I’ll fall, I’m blind, I constantly
come back to hopelessness
meaningless seasons of empty distress, but
you are
waking me alive
unbeknownst to me, you are not surprised
by my hostility or repeated doubts
life breathed in, hope pours out
release of judgement on myself
you are the I AM and
I am not all I thought I was but
depending on you
I am
yearning for you
I am
in desperate need of you and all
you are
immeasurably more
always

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11 comments
  1. Alex said:

    My favorite thing about blogging is posting my mediocre writings and then going to the blogs of those who “like” them and, on occasion, finding treasures of writing like I’ve found here at your blog. I am commenting on this particular post because it truly touched me after reading some of your other posts.

    What is so beautiful about your writings is your honesty which expresses your natural human contrasts. Here in this post I experience your sincere depth of spirituality and in other writings I experience you being far to hard on yourself. To be honest, deep, sincere spirituality often comes with the contrast of being hard on ourselves, but it doesn’t have to be that way. Even within some of the darkness and even sadness of your writings, I can see such a brilliant light shining through your words and your feelings.

    Whether you see it or not. from what you express, I see such a beautiful heart within you. No matter what you write. No matter how angry and frustrated it may sound, there is no escaping the light and hope that shines brightly through your words coming directly from your heart.
    Many blessings upon you.

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    • Kira said:

      Alex,
      Thank you so much for taking the time to write this out. I also enjoy finding treasures of writing, like ones that I’ve read on your blog as well.

      I thought a lot about what you said – that I can be too hard on myself, but I also try to shine light through my words. I actually wrote my most recent post with those words in mind.

      Thank you again for your encouraging comment. I hope to keep reading more amazing writing from you, and I hope you continue to read mine as well.
      ~Kira

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      • Alex said:

        Kira,
        I don’t often comment so I really didn’t know how you would take what I wrote. I’m happy that you saw in it what I intended. You do have a way of perceiving spiritual depth, it is easy to see this in your writing.

        When I first read you poetry and then saw the name of your blog, “Kira’s Hymns” I thought, “These are truly personal hymns.” Very beautiful hymns.

        I’m not Judeo-Christian but I have studied the bible. There is one book in the bible that I truly enjoyed. It is Psalms. The reason I enjoy it is because of how personal it is. The spiritual expressions of a deeply spiritual man as he strives to reconcile with his God. He wrote from a great darkness yet there was always a great light of hope that came through his words.

        Because of this, even though there was great suffering and darkness within his words, one can’t help but see the beauty within his words. It reminds me of how we often neglect and even ignore the beauty that is within the darkness because we are trying so hard to always be in the light. Like running through a beautiful garden simply to get to the other side while missing all the beauty that was within the garden.

        As I read your current post, “Free Fall” I thought of Psalms. In a sense, you are writing your Psalms. As I read your writings I can’t help but feel many things. My first feeling is that of not wanting you to suffer or feel bad. Then I experience the beauty within the darkness that you express. Then I experience the powerful light that comes through your words. In the end, I can only sigh as I would in seeing a beautiful sunset or a garden filled the most delightful flowers, inhaling their scents until I nearly fall over from the purity that it brings to my heart.

        Basically, in a long way, I am saying something that my Goddess once told me when I was feeling ugly, dirty and no good. She said, “Stop. If only you knew how beautiful your spirit is you would know why I love and care for you so much. I adore you. You are so beautiful and I can’t understand how you could ever feel like you’re not.” it took me a little while for this to sink in but it changed me. It freed me. It allowed me to start viewing myself in universal or eternal terms rather than in the finite terms of this life.

        When I read your writings I can’t help but think, “You are so beautiful and I can’t understand how you could ever feel like you’re not.”

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    • Kira said:

      Of course! Thank you for commenting on my page

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  2. ZQ said:

    Sounds like Love… that can’t be too bad 🙂

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